December 31, 2013
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2014.
On the brim of another year and I've never been one to make New Year's resolutions. They aren't my thing and I actually don't think I've ever made New Year's resolutions. Call me a New Year grinch.
I was going to be completely content sitting at home by myself tonight just relaxing then was invited to 3 parties. I guess I'll be social and hit up 2 out of the 3 to ring in the New Year.
I was reading this blog: 25 New Year’s Resolutions Every Person Should Actually Make For 2014
25 things? Some I think are stupid. Some just don't pertain to me. Some I think are great ideas. For me, 25 new resolutions seems, dare I say, unrealistic.
Facebook for the last couple years has done a "Year in Review" and this year, the top thing in my review is my friend's wedding. Obviously Facebook is not one to tell me the biggest events in my life but I laughed that it wasn't even about me.
This year, for the first time in awhile (if ever), I've decided to make a couple resolutions. Why am I blogging about it? Easy. If I keep it to myself (as in not in writing), it won't keep me accountable. I know there are some that read this, not many, and that and knowing it is written here is enough to keep me accountable.
These aren't groundbreaking resolutions by any means. Actually very stereotypical, truth be told. (In no particular order.)
1. My relationship with my Savior. You see. My joy doesn't come from anything or anyone. Truth be told, I've lost sight of this recently. You can have all this world, Just give me Jesus. He IS my priority.
2. I need to lose weight. Get in better shape. This doesn't define me by any means but I'm fat and I need to do something about it. That's really it. I don't have a scale but I have a mirror. I was almost brave enough to post a picture of the scale (that I stepped on at work). I did take one and even one of those gross before pictures. Maybe when there is an after, those will be posted but no promises. This isn't something I want to do for someone else (as in maybe if I was skinnier, I wouldn't be single - not at all) but simply for me because it's simply time.
3. This is gonna sound stupid maybe even selfish and I'm not sure how else to word it but I need to figure out who I am. Have you ever seen Runaway Bride? Richard Gere's character is upset with Julia Roberts character for not knowing what kind of eggs she likes. She doesn't even know because of how she adapts/changes her preferences to the different men/people in her life. This is not about eggs for me. I like easy over eggs - the runnier the yolk the better. I digress. It's about figuring out who I am, not in some spiritual "find myself" journey kind of way. Maybe this should be defined, simply be me - not who others perceive me to be or like what they like, just because they like it. This is not really a measurable goal, which are goals I don't really like but in the end, I'll know. (Are you like, sick of the word like yet?)
4. Live in the now. I know I live in the past. Analyzing, what if-ing, revisiting. I want to live in what the Lord has given me today. What's that quote? "Yesterday is History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift, Thats why it's called the Present." This doesn't mean forgetting the past or erasing it somehow. I truly believe the past is there for us to learn from but
weI also need to allow myself to move forward. This is hard for me. I'm an over-analyzer by trade.5. To be fully present - which really goes hand in hand with "Live in the now". What do I mean by this? Less time on my phone, computer or anything else that may distract me from building relationships. When I'm spending time with someone, whether for hours or a brief conversation, my attention is on them - not checking my email, texts etc. I know this will be challenging (especially for techy, fast paced me) but it's necessary for me (and dare I say others, too) to be aware of this. I need to put genuine time back into fostering relationships. You know exactly what I mean.
Putting words to the truths floating around in my head forces me to recognize them and gives me more strength to make better decisions in the future.
From zero to five resolutions. There you go. 2014, bring it on.
Comments (4)
I didn't like that facebook thing either. It didn't even mention Lena's birth - pretty sure that was our most momentous occasion this year!
Loved the line, "I don't own a scale, but I do own a mirror." Lol. Word.
I don't know who I am either. I change depending on who I'm with. I like to call it adaptable or flexible. But it's really just flaky. Ha.
Runny eggs? Gross.
Sadie, I've been thinking a lot about the knowing who I am thing. Maybe not flaky and I don't even know how to word it but ...reliable and dependable...sacrificial come to mind (not to beep our own horns). For me, it's a good and bad quality. Good for others and somewhat bad for myself because I lose me. For example sake, a friend says I would like to get Rocky Road Icecream. Sure, why not. Maybe it wouldn't be my first choice but I'm "giving in" so they can have what they want - putting their needs first. I often don't step up with my opinion in things like what store do you want to go to or what movie do you want because although, I may have an opinion, I would rather they get what they want but in the midst of that, I begin to wonder if I know what I want, if I was actually asked. There just seems to be a fine line there, at least for me, because honestly I'd rather someone else get what they want. If it's something I have a strong opinion about like do you want to do drugs or have strawberry icecream (ha, bad examples) I'll speak up but for the most part, I'll just adapt. Hmm, good and bad quality. (Wow, that was weird to put down in writing...thoughts whirling around in my mind.)
Facebook doesn't know anything. haha...a child significants? Details.
Sometimes I wish I didn't own a mirror. 
And now I've added a 4th and a 5th. The good ole edit button.
So well said my friend!!!! Love them all
Woa! You commented?
Thanks Buch! It'll be a challenging year but that's a good thing. 