A friend of mine started a blog and unlike myself, she puts it out there for the world to see. She asked if I would write a blog for her to post (I think I promised more as well – better get on that). At first, I was hesistant because I’m kind of a coward to actually put my words and thoughts out there. I like writing here because it’s private for the most part. In other words, I’m not blasting it on social media. I prefer that but also see the value of writing blogs for others to write. I see a lot of value in that, seeing how I should join a “Blog stalking anonymous” club. Anyway, I digress. One of the suggestions to write on was singleness. Some days I think I could write a book on it. She posted this early in December and I’m getting around the hard task of copying and pasting it here.
Below is what I wrote…this was the shortest version that went up. It was probably double that length at one point. I’m long winded, what can I say? (It really is a combination of other blogs/thoughts I’ve already had here but tried to tie it in a neat(er) little package.)
My name is Bethany, I’m 26, single and living on my own.
Sounds like I need a support group, huh?
Growing up, I was never that girl dreaming about and planning my wedding while picturing my Happily Ever After. I honestly don’t know how I pictured my life as a child when I reached this age but I’m pretty sure it wasn’t where I am now. I probably assumed I’d be married with kids. Well, I’m not…not even close.
Think about this for a second. What if my ultimate goal has nothing to do with marriage or kids? What if my aim was to love people well, and to fully embrace the gifts God has given me to serve Him? What if my life goal was to run the race and to be called a good and faithful servant at the end of it all? Would that be enough? Would that be acceptable? Maybe that would mean marriage and children along the way, but maybe it wouldn’t. Maybe the best the Lord has for me is not marriage, having brown babies (my mom’s dream) and being a stay at home mother. I really do want all that but maybe He has something else in store for me. If His plan for me is not getting married or not for 5-10+ years, should I go about my daily life as if I missed out on something? Have I failed and not reached the “best” if I never marry? I don’t think so but it sure feels like that sometimes.
I was listening to Focus on the Family a couple months ago and the 40 year old single woman speaking began to cry as she said, “I’m no ones most important person.” I understand that feeling, so well. Most single men and women have those times when they’d really like to be married. I know I do and I think it’s OK and healthy to admit.
BUT the difference, for me, is it isn’t a spouse that completes me, nor should it be. I don’t need a spouse to “feel” complete. I already am because I am a sinner saved by grace. If He blesses me with a spouse, I will be that much more thankful and blessed. But to expect a spouse to make me feel whole, to fill some void in my life is not where I should be seeking completion. Expecting anyone – friend, family, spouse to do so WILL leave you disappointed because they, like yourself, is a SINNER. It’s in their nature to screw up. It isn’t in HIS. This is not to say they can’t take part in your life, obviously. I believe God made us to need others, for horizontal relationships. The danger creeps in when you expect them to take the role of God in your life, filling a void that only He can – you will ALWAYS be disappointed. It’s a role they will never measure up to and it’s unfair to put such an expectation on anyone.
So let me be clear, I don’t have a void and a resounding yes, I want to be married but my satisfaction is placed in Him and not him. To be honest, I’d have it no other way. If I’ve learned one thing in my life it’s God’s timing is perfect. His plan is perfect and I’m thankful for His provision. So I can truthfully say I’m thankful I’m not married because of where He has me. I know if I was , I wouldn’t know some of the people I do and wouldn’t be doing some of the things I currently am. (The same would be true if I was married.)
26. Single. Complete. Thankful. Blessed. Believe it or not, it’s possible.
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