June 19, 2013
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Complete.
I wrote this to a friend the other day, which was fitting in our email threads.
“I want to save myself for one person – completely. I don’t want to kiss until we’re engaged. I want that to only be shared with my husband. It’s rare I know and maybe seems unrealistic. He may not have saved that for me, but I want that to be his and only his. Maybe that’s being a hopeless romantic but that’s not how I view it at all. It’s the morals I’m going to hold to. I don’t want to kiss that guy over there and that guy and so on that I’ve given so much of myself away – emotions/physical to other men that aren’t my husband. I know how my mind works and how it remember memories like firsts this or that, or that specific place reminds me of that – every single time. I don’t want that to be spread out amongst men. For me, I would feel like that’s not staying pure for him. Of course, I hope and pray he’s saving himself for me. Primarily physical but I also believe there is more to purity than just being physically pure. I want to be pure. Completely. Mind, body and soul if the Lord blesses me with a husband. I want him to know I saved myself for him and him alone. I know this isn’t the norm in today’s world but the world is not my standards. Scripture is where my standards of living come from – simple as that.”
I went to pull it out after I saw Mark Driscoll’s tweet yesterday, “Single man: are you loving your future wife by how you conduct yourself spiritually, financially, emotionally, mentally, and sexually?” Amen.
I watched the Bachelorette tonight because I had time to catch up. I know, I know…shun me for watching. Anyway, one of the guys that wasn’t given a rose tonight said this, “There’s still that missing piece in my life which is true everlasting love that I don’t have. Without that you feel alone, like you’re not complete.” He’s obviously missing it. The true joy it is to be complete not because of a person, a friend or something but solely by Him and Him alone. I’ve been listening to Give Me Jesus a bit lately and really praying that to be true of my life. “You can have all this world just give me Jesus. Give me Jesus.” That’s saying a lot. I am complete. Right now. As a single woman living in my parent’s basement. I am complete because He made it possible to be.
